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Joshua Jennifer Espinoza

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Joshua Jennifer Espinoza is the author of i’m alive / it hurts / i love it (Boost House, 2014). Espinoza’s poems have also appeared online, in publications including The Feminist Wire and The Offing, and in the e-book In Fear of a Trans Planet (Be About It Press, 2015). Espinoza lives in Riverside, California.

by this poet

This is like a life. This is lifelike.
I climb inside a mistake
and remake myself in the shape
of a better mistake—
a nice pair of glasses
without any lenses,
shoes that don’t quite fit,
a chest that always hurts.
There is a checklist of things
you need to do to be a person.
I don’t want to be a person
but there

Like light but
in reverse we billow.

We turn a corner
and make the hills

You rearrange
my parts until no
more hurting.

No more skin-sunk
nighttime fear.

No more blameless death.

My hair loses its atoms.
My body glows
in the dark.