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Dorothy Chan is the author of Attack of the Fifty-Foot Centerfold (Spork Press, 2018). Chan is currently a PhD candidate in poetry at Florida State University and serves as the assistant editor of The Southeast Review.

Triple Sonnet for My Father’s Pet Goose, Pigeon Wars, and Daddy Issues

Lovers in cartoons get into swan boats
before declaring their undying love,
but I’m terrified because have you seen
the wedding footage of the swan eating
the bride’s white dress, chasing her down the pond,
and we live in such a scary world
that the bird poems really aren’t helping,
because what good do they really do?
But what about my father growing up
in Macau, in Hong Kong, across too many
boarding schools in Asia to count,
one day going home to his mother,
a goose arrives at his bedroom window,
like a sign from a higher being.

And when I’m twenty-three, in Singapore,
I’m telling this story to a man
double my age—we’re greeted by pigeons—
and no, I don’t have daddy issues,
I’m just pouring my heart out
because that goose was my dad’s best friend,
because my grandma ended up
cooking that goose, because the man I’m dating
understands these old-school-Chinese-stiff-
upper-lip-we’re-poor-so-I’m-sorry-son
situations of survival,
because this same man wants me to write
about his father, but I don’t have time
to be someone else’s biographer

when I’m thinking of how my father
made sure we always had a family dog,
a Buzzie to keep us warm, take out
for Italian ice and custard trips,
how during the Pennsylvania winters,
my father would bring lost birds inside
the house and feed them milk to keep warm,
how growing up, we’d go to the park
every weekend to feed the ducks,
and back to Singapore, when I look down
at the pigeons interrupting my date,
starting a brawl over scone crumbs
in the middle of the coffee shop,
I can’t help but just look down, laugh at them.

Copyright © 2018 by Dorothy Chan. This poem originally appeared in Split Lip Magazine. Used with permission of the author.

Copyright © 2018 by Dorothy Chan. This poem originally appeared in Split Lip Magazine. Used with permission of the author.

Dorothy Chan

Dorothy Chan

Dorothy Chan is the author of Attack of the Fifty-Foot Centerfold (Spork Press, 2018). Chan is currently a PhD candidate in poetry at Florida State University and serves as the assistant editor of The Southeast Review.

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