I am given a pony for my birthday, but it is the
wrong kind of pony. It is the kind of pony that
won't listen. It is testy. When I ask it to go left, it
goes right. When I ask it to run, it sleeps on its
side in the tall grass. So when I ask it to jump us
over the river into the field I have never before
been, I have every reason to believe it will fail,
that we will be swept down the river to our
deaths. It is a fate for which I am prepared. The
blame of our death will rest with the testy pony,
and with that, I will be remembered with
reverence, and the pony will be remembered
with great anger. But with me on its back, the
testy pony rears and approaches the river with
unfettered bravery. Its leap is glorious. It clears
the river with ease, not even getting its pony
hooves wet. And then there we are on the other
side of the river, the sun going down, the pony
circling, looking for something to eat in the dirt.
Real trust is to do so in the face of clear doubt,
and to trust is to love. This is my failure, and for
that I cannot be forgiven.