In winterís spider-eyed light strung through steam grates, the tunnels turn feral.
This is the other city, the dark one
of hidden passages, runaways and orphaned days
and like me it sleeps in broken buildings
and smells of a sad suicide from the fifteenth century, and like me
it has smoked three things on the mold-furred walls
which are the only altars
of those whoíve dropped through holes in the sidewalk
to descend to these steam tunnels rung by slick rung.
This city shambles room to room.
Drawn to the easy sound of sleep,
it knows the pattern night pens on tender skin,
knows your darkest secrets and tells
no one except the sycamore
which rips from its skin with shame.
It wants absolution,
taps your sins on water pipes to shudder out of faucets,
ties them to the tail feathers of soot-mottled birds
who beat up from the concrete-lipped curb,
falter over cars, stutter
then catch an oily gust and wheel into the scalded sky.
It claims to be blind though it might have a thousand eyes,
screams obscenities from 13th and University and pisses in alleys.
Sometimes it drinks too much. Sometimes it begs for more.
It hides tents among trees in the park by the sluggish river
this red-eyed thing blinking from storm grates.
It is a window breaking.
Other peopleís blood in its veins, skin on fire,
smack, crack, meth, strychnine and scouring powder sold as speed,
some drug or another telling it die, you must die. But it doesnít die.
Step around it on your way to the theater.
It crawls through your bedroom window, a warm bed and in the morning
the smell of coffee and bacon spitting in grease. Thatís all it wants.
Aching hands in underwear drawers,
You are its worst nightmare.
Coiled cable, blood and razor-wire, shredded muscle and blue bone,
cold nights, the city under the city
is where youíll find me. Though not now.
Now it is heat-hazed summer and sunset
and I whisper the four-syllable name of the stranger
I should have become and disappear through the back door
of the Villa Inn where the cook paces the few feet
between the makeline and the ovens
muttering Chimbukee Chimbukee Chimbukee
Itís been nine years since heís known the burned light
of his own country or a womanís name churned in sea foam, nine years
since heís clung to flesh which smells of rosemary and dried tomatoes.
He checks his billfold, thick with this weekís pay. Letís go
he says to me, pointing toward his apartment across the alley.
Letís go Super Ju. Party. Party, he says
then reaches his swollen hands deep into his pants
past the flour-grubbed belt line
and with a hard twist adjusts his truss.
We call him Chris though thatís not his name
and I think to myself, Homer, Odysseus,
the blood-blue sea, the sun in its relentless veracity
be damned to hell and back. Sweating pizza drivers, me sleeping
in my truck or if itís winter in empty buildings and the steam tunnels,
and every weekend the parking lot filling up with dope dealers
with their out-of-state plates
and hookers dropped off by their pimps
and the homeless who stumble
from the boarded buildings and doorways to this oiled kaleidoscope
under the warehousesí dark windows—
the broken, fish-line-strung and eye-level hooked—
this grease-barrel and sour dumpster-stinking,
trash-can-blaze, busted bottles, pissed on pissed off
fuck you fuck you kill strong-armed ambulance scream, parking lot
and Chris saying Chimbukee Chimbukee Chimbukee
cussing us, Scata. Malaka American. Sto dyavolo malaka,
Pizza malaka. Deliver,Chris yells but slow night
no orders, no tips so we yell back, You malaka.
Give us pizzas. To krima sto lemo sou,Chris says
Greek which to us means nothing.
and just outside the fish-net stockinged, stiletto-heeled
Star, Joy, Princess. Joy, I think, and am too tired to think anything else
when she tells me she swings, asks if I have something,
anything, coke, smack, speed, rock. At least some pot. Come on. Hook me up, she says.
Then the teams. Salt & Sugar. Salt & Pepper. Nilla & Chocolate
with their matching tattoos, Comedy & Tragedy. Happy one day, Dead the next.
Angel, Love Boat, Crystal.
I got first degree I got MG
Blue ludes, 8-Balls, rocks, the dealers yell.
Quiver & Shiver Come
get my stash I got the stuff
Tongo & Cash
Lot of Candy Man & Sweet Stuff.
Slick the Stick, a pimp caught up in his own rhyme.
Lover Boy & Philly Boy. Wanna-beís and gonna-beís: