Allison Benis White is the author of Please Bury Me in This (Four Way Books, 2017) and Small Porcelain Head (Four Way Books, 2013). She teaches at the University of California, Riverside, and lives in Irvine, California.
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from Please Bury Me in This [I am not any closer...]
I am not any closer to saying what I mean.
Love has made itself so quiet, a few red fish moving in slow circles.
I want to say like blood, like forgiveness, this obedience, looking at the ground on my knees.
I mean to cease to feel, to cancel, to give up all claim to—
At some point, I rested my hands over my eyes and mouthed, This is my face housed underwater.
This is a love letter.
Every word but mouthed erased.