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Screening Desire

R. Zamora Linmark
Sunday after Mass the priest behind
the screen prescribes three Our Fathers
ten Hail Marys three Glory Be’s
for dropping ecstasy laced with cocaine
Friday cybersexing all night Saturday
with Hot&Horny35 from Denmark blond
blue-eyed swimmer’s body in search of Asian
or Latin American bottom it must’ve been
his lucky night found both continents
in you as Pablo Sanchez Puerto Rican
Pinoy 22 str8acting gay son of
cultural attaché stationed in Manila
posh bungalow glasscapped subdivision
MadMax securityguards indoorpool
beachhouse in the province near a volcano
within a lake fivecar garage you drive
home to your harddrive set up
a blind date Monday evening you
and only you end up keeping Romeo 23
goodlkn Moreno versatile is blaming
the rain there’s flood right outside
my room I tried to reach your cellphone
says your voicemail but will try again
you forgive him you’re Catholic
you wait by the phone all day Wednesday
that does not ring until Thursday
morning comes it is nobody special only
your mother asking for fashion advice
Madame Imelda’s 75th birthday bash
at Manila Hotel go minimalist you say
Prada or SoEn you blast Madonna
as Evita Peron right out of your Cityland
condo studio 14 square meters reboot 
the PC replace five pounds of beerbelly
with sixpack abs nice smoothchest
wellhung a George Michael goatee
you christen yourself not Mark
that was earlier this week
not John that was last week what’s left?
two option Luck17 cute
afterschooldaddy bicurious cyber
phone okay or Matthew37 6’1 brwnhair
hazeleyes Italian FilAm from Big Apple
will be visiting in two weeks you 
compromise and enter the chatroom as
Paul26 into 69 top please no fems or
drags a macho ritual you picked up along
with lying to please the glare
of the screen that answers back
right away from ReadyEddie Chinito 
30 5’10 160 lbs bottom discreet you
score big he’s a banker with high
interest in designer labels and French
cuisine let’s hook up dinner first
al Le Soufflé maybe last full showing 
at Glorietta4 or Starbucks for Frappuccino
you’ll know him by the Emporio Armani
spreadwinged golden eagle logo across
his chest he’ll spot you by your thousand
peso Paris runway haircut DKNY blk shirt
Hugo Boss stretch pants containing
chocolateflavored Trust condoms 
and free samples of Astroglide lube
distributed by a non-governmental 
organization in Ermita just in case
2 a.m. Saturday strikes with another
round of Jose Cuervo Gold tequila
shots at Giraffe his American
Express corporate card picks up the tab
you know he says I’ve never been with
a poet and gives you the most beautiful
smile in history then vanishes forever
as if to say ReadyEddie has left
the room or is simply ignoring you.

Copyright © R. Zamora Linmark 2005. From Prime Time Apparitions. Used with permission of Hanging Loose Press.

R. Zamora Linmark

by this poet

poem
Is it the Garcia Lorca kind
faithful as a cricket's
tune about a boy fishing
in a pool of rainwater
for his lost voice
praying it'll sing back
so he can wear it
on his finger again
like a wedding ring?

Maybe it's the anti-parakeet
Nicanor Parra kind
remorseful as a memoir
that survived four wars
half a dozen