Childbirth was not dying nor defecating Childbirth was just a very painful period For the thirty-seven hours from beginning to end I kept on bleeding just as if I were having my period I wanted to change my maxi pad, change it right away I was constantly aware of my anus but I knew I didn't have to defecate The pain was unpleasant, nothing more The pain was unpleasant The pain was unpleasant Dying is unpleasant Unpleasant April 30, 9:47 am, a baby girl 3,650 grams, 51 centimeters After twenty-four hours have passed, the newborn is brought from the nursery and allowed to be with the mother. A bed for the newborn is placed to the side of the mother's bed, but everyone puts their baby in the bed with them and sleeps next to it. The bed for the newborn is so high that unless the mother lifts herself up, she cannot see it. My baby kept vomiting amniotic fluid in the nursery May 1, 9:47 am, twenty-four hours had gone by, but there she stayed May 1, the afternoon goes by and still no baby May 2, the whole day goes by and still no baby May 3, the whole morning and still no baby There is no baby Anywhere I haven't started lactating, of course May 3, 1 pm, the baby arrived And has existed ever since
From Killing Kanoko. Copyright © 2009 by Jeffrey Angles. Used with permission of Action Books.