What I Am

Terrance Hayes

 
Fred Sanford's on at 12
& I'm standing in the express lane (cash only)
about to buy Head & Shoulders
the white people shampoo, no one knows
what I am. My name could be Lamont.
George Clinton wears colors like Toucan Sam,
the Froot Loop pelican. Follow your nose,
he says. But I have no nose, no mouth,
so you tell me what's good, what's god,
what's funky. When I stop
by McDonalds for a cheeseburger, no one
suspects what I am. I smile at Ronald's poster,
perpetual grin behind the pissed-off, fly-girl
cashier I love. Where are my goddamn fries?
Ain't I American? I never say, Niggaz
in my poems. My ancestors didn't
emigrate. Why would anyone leave
their native land? I'm thinking about shooting
some hoop later on. I'll dunk on everyone
of those niggaz. They have no idea
what I am. I might be the next Jordan
god. They don't know if Toni Morrison
is a woman or a man. Michael Jackson
is the biggest name in showbiz. Mamma se
Mamma sa mamma ku sa, sang the Bushmen
in Africa. I'll buy a dimebag after the game,
me & Jody. He says, Fuck them white people
at work, Man. He was an All-American
in high school. He's cool, but he don't know
what I am, & so what. Fred Sanford's on
in a few & I got the dandruff-free head
& shoulders of white people & a cheeseburger
belly & a Thriller CD & Nike high tops
& slavery's dead & the TV's my daddy--
   You big Dummy!
Fred tells Lamont.
 
From Muscular Music by Terrance Hayes, published by Tia Chucha Press. Copyright © 1999 by Terrance Hayes. Reprinted by permission of Terrance Hayes. All rights reserved.

Poems by This Author

At Pegasus by Terrance Hayes
They are like those crazy women
Derrick Poem (The Lost World) by Terrance Hayes
I take my $, buy a pair of very bright kicks for the game
Lighthead's Guide to Addiction by Terrance Hayes
Lighthead's Guide to the Galaxy by Terrance Hayes
Ladies and gentelmen, ghosts and children of the state
Liner Notes to an Imaginary Playlist by Terrance Hayes
1. The Song is Called Wind Solo, by the Phelonious Monks
Shafro by Terrance Hayes
Now that my afro's as big as Shaft's
Shakur by Terrance Hayes
I am coming at you live from the half-way out
The Blue Terrance by Terrance Hayes
If you subtract the minor losses


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